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I've slacked a little more in not writing. Oh well, I'm writing now. And it's not like people actually read it anyways.

I'm really only writing for one reason. To talk about one person in my life who has really upset me. You may call this person your dad, or father. I haven't talked to my dad in over a month and it quite frankly makes me really mad. First off, I shouldn't be the only person that has to call people to keep in touch. I can't help that I live out of state, but I'm TIRED of being the only person that calls people. I constantly hear, "give me a call" WHY? I mean I don't have a problem calling people, but when it's just outgoing on my phone and no incoming it irritates me. A friendship, relationship takes two people. My mom calls me, my sisters call me etc and I call them as well. It's mutual. This whole scenario reminds me of one particular time in my life when I did the same exact thing my dad is doing. When I first started dating my husband I ignored everyone in my life. Friends, family etc. I didn't call them because I was so wrapped up in this awesome cute boy that was my boyfriend. After our infatuation stage had ended I realize what a huge mistake I made by doing that. It was a mistake on my part, but honestly that sounds like a very common thing when it comes to relationships because I'm pretty sure everyone does it at one time or another. Anywho, so back to my father. He doesn't ever call me. Doesn't interact with me on facebook, and why? IDK. He has no clue whatsoever what is going on in my life. I've heard numerous times that he must be afraid to call me. Why? Probably because I make him think about the crap he's doing in his life and he doesn't like to. Idk, because every time we have a conversation I have never yelled at him. I always just calmly discuss things. Actually our last conversation was not horrible at all. I called to ask him a question and of course he jumped off the phone real fast. It's almost like he's avoiding talking to me. The next thing that could be the result. I didn't go to his wedding, and told him I wasn't going to do the photography. I know he said that I take good photos and such, but even if I was going to show up at the wedding, I wouldn't want to be missing it all by worrying about photographing it, I would want to sit and enjoy. I don't agree with what my dad has done and is doing in his life (and I don't agree with what my mom has done either and she knows this but still chooses to talk to me because she is my MOTHER) and he knows this, so I feel like he only avoids talking to me so I don't tell him or talk to him about what he's doing. Second, and I don't care what anyone says, she doesn't like any of his kids and she is constantly throwing fits about stuff that doesn't matter in life. I'm so fed up with all the garbage that has come from this divorce. I hate, HATE HATE when people try to put words in my mouth and make it seem like I did something or said something that I DIDN'T. I never wanted my parents to get a divorce, and I never wanted to have any step parents, but now I do. I have no desire to share my life with people who don't care, nor have any part in my life to begin with. I'm just so irritated. I didn't go to the wedding because 1. I didn't have the time because of a project I was working on. 2. My husband couldn't get the time off for such event. 3. It's a long drive home that we didn't have the money for. 4. I don't agree with it and why would I want to be there to show support for someone who doesn't like me? That's just foolish and not something I'm going to waste my time doing.

toodles,
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